I’m in a mood. The heavy kind where everything feels like too much and nothing feels like enough.
I finally worked up the nerve to fix my shoulderpad disaster. After all the blood and sweat I poured into the battlegrounds… the endless, soul-crushing losses where sometimes I’d only walk away with thirty measly Conquest, or worse, nothing at all, I scraped together enough for four Galactic Gladiator’s Heraldry. One hundred seventy-five each. I earned every single one the hard way.
So I placed a personal crafting order for a fresh pair of Thalassian Competitor’s Cloth Shoulderpads. I sent the mats, the Heraldry, everything. The order went through.
And then… nothing. The tailor who took the order hasn’t returned. It’s been hours. Maybe longer.
Now I’m just sitting here spiraling. What if they never come back to finish it? What if I lose the Heraldry I bled for? I can’t go through all that again. I just can’t.
What if the order just sits there until it expires and I lose everything I scraped together?
And even if they do get made, I still have to figure out how to undo the wrong embellishment I already put on the last pair. One problem at a time, I guess.
I’m trying so hard not to spiral completely, but I can’t stop thinking about it. I just wanted the shoulders. I just wanted one thing to go right after all the losses and the overthinking and everything else.
I might go sit at Vynna’s counter again soon. She doesn’t deserve another hour of me draining her mana, but I don’t really have anywhere else to go right now.
Please make the shoulders! Let me fix this one stupid thing.
~Sahsha
(Overworked Healer, Professional Overthinker, Currently Held Hostage by Her Own Crafting Order)